So, I think I’ve spent the appropriate amount of time neglecting my blog to justify starting back up again. So, here’s to a couple weeks of random posts before the next half-year of neglect
Changes- new woman in my life who fills me with such confidence and affirmation that I’ve taken more steps forward I’ve been too afraid to take. I’ve shaved off my beard, I’ve finally started using makeup, and I’m changing my wardrobe up a little because I can’t pretend such male-looking clothing in public is OK anymore. I’ve had a few really upsetting run-ins with the makeup so far, but last night I dialed everything back, just did mascara and a bit of lipstick, and actually took a picture of real me that I can honestly say is feminine and cute.
I’ve definitely become much more comfortable unleashing the girl inside, even when I’m playing that male character in public. It’s no longer a “want to” but more of a “have to”. I’ve been coming out to more people and it feels so great.
But the biggest change- I got ahold of estradiol. I was able to line up 6 months worth from someone I’ve known a very, very long time, and tonight I start. I’m already on medical anti-androgen for my heart stuff, and Im keeping my herbal anti-andros, but the rest are going away and the medical estro is taking its place. I’m giddy with excitement. Lab work to follow soon.
I cannot possibly express properly my gratitude to my cis sisters in my life who have been just overwhelmingly supportive of me. A, R, T, M, J – I love you all. Thank you for being part of this. But above all, Kaitlyn, I feel like I have come farther in the last 3 weeks than the last almost 3 years combined, and it’s because of the look in your eyes and the sound of your voice and everything you’ve so (ridiculously) rapidly become to me.
OK, sappy catch-up post over. Maybe next time will be overly-personal and make us all uncomfortable!!